This past weekend I decided to make a hoop video and learned a lesson about vanity! The first video I made was awesome. I felt like I pulled out almost all of my tricks and nailed them all, BUT upon rewatch, I couldn't get past how fat I looked in the video. I changed clothes and tried again and again throughout the evening, but never could match the first one. I had already mentally committed to this project and knew I wanted to post a video on Facebook, for all of my friends and family who don't really know what I mean when I say I hoopdanced for an hour. So I had a big decision to make between two very disctinct kind of vanities. Do I post the kickass hoop video where I look like I have decent flow, but I can't take my eyes off of my big stomach, or do I go with the "alright" video where I think I look better. Looking better physically won out over looking more hoop proficient. I suppose I still have some stuff in my back pocket for a future video, but I'm a little disappointed in myself that I'm not braver. or more self-confident or something.
This is the video I went with. Regardless of anything else, I am proud how much I've finally progressed. I feel like I'm turning a corner with my hooping, even if I'm not making better strides with weight loss. Hopefully that will follow!
On a lighter note, immediately after changing my clothes into the "more flattering" ensemble, I made this video. It's full of mistakes, and I quickly realized it was going to be a bad video, so i just went for it and got my silly on. In some ways, it is my favorite of all of the videos I shot!
Love the videos! Fun! :)
ReplyDeleteI think you should just be happy! You're beautiful just the way you are and accepting that before you start anything is vital. I struggled with confidence issues before and I know that once I started realizing that I can do things to make me feel better about myself without being so hard on myself first, kick started everything. Life is beautiful!
ReplyDeleteThanks! Mostly I am happy, but I do struggle with confidence. I'm getting there though! :)
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