Indecision

I get paralyzed from indecision sometimes. It is so hard to be productive when the thought process required to decide what to have for breakfast is overwhelming. This morning

was no exception. My first thought was eggs, as it usually is, but for whatever reason I

didn't want to cook eggs this morning. I'm out of cheese so no omelet, I have no

bread for toast. I do have some bagels, but they are of the sweeter variety, and not really

good for an egg sandwich. However I could choose a bagel and cream cheese, but again, they are

a sweeter bagel, and I prefer a salty bagel/cream cheese flavor combination. Not that I'm opposed to having something sweet for breakfast, but it should be more uniformly sweet if so.

For a minute or two I consider Frosted Flakes, but then I decide I don't really want to eat that much sugar first thing in the morning. I start getting bothered about not having made a decision yet, so I think maybe I should just get a glass of Sierra Mist in the meantime and not eat anything until I decide what I want. But it would be ridiculous to turn down the Frosted Flakes because of all the sugar if I'm just going to drink a glass of sugar instead. If that's the case, I might as well have Skittles for breakfast! Oooh, Skittles...I have some. Mostly just the green ones left because they're my least favorite. Not that I won't eat green skittles. Oh I will! But they're not my first choice. OMG, Am I seriously to the point where I'm really considering eating nothing but green Skittles for breakfast? I have to do better than that! I revisit cooking some eggs, because I really like eggs, but I'd want something carby with them. I could make some brown rice because I love that with eggs, but that would take 45 minutes to cook and that's just too long! I wish I could be fine with having a bagel. Oh wait...there's sunbutter! Sunbutter on a sweeter bagel is really good! That appeals to the side of me that loves a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. It's THAT kind of flavor combo!

Finally, having decided on a breakfast, I put the bagel in the toaster and begin a long mental dialogue berating myself for wasting so much time trying to pick a FOOD when I have so much work that needs to get done. Or I could shower! Or exercise! Or clean something! Anything! I think about this for so long that I start to think of the voice in my head as a separate person, one that I don't have to answer to. I mentally laugh at Other Me and live in the moment for a minute or two, completely enmeshed in the moment and aware of everything going on around me.

(I am currently reading "The Power of Now" for my book club and apparently it's starting to sink into my consciousness.) I snap out of my musings to see that my bagel popped up awhile ago and I better get to it while it's still warm. That's when I look back towards the living room and notice the light coming in the front door and how pretty the piano looks bathed in the light. It could potentially make a pretty photograph so I decide to grab my camera. It won't take too long to snap a few shots. I have to take several though because the lens I'm using doesn't autofocus anymore. I have to focus it manually which isn't so bad, but my eyesight isn't very good and it's really hard for me to tell if something is in focus. Not to mention I'm shaky which means many blurry photos are inevitable. I don't mess with a lot of settings on the camera though because I know that will suck up way too much of my time and then I won't be able to resist editing them right after so I can see how they turned out. No, I'll just shoot these on Program mode and play

with them later.

Finally, my sunbutter bagel is finished and I pour a glass of milk to go with it. They look pretty together, and I think about taking a picture of it, since this IS a blog where I'm going to be talking about the things I eat. At this point, though, I figure it's best to stick with a picture of the piano and eat my food.